At forty-six, my life stopped at 9:47 p.m. Two police officers stood in the rain and told me a drunk driver had killed my husband and our two children three blocks from home. Since then, I’d lived like a ghost—eating, sleeping, existing because I hadn’t figured out how not to.

Before that night, our home was noise and warmth. Mark was my college sweetheart who once set off a fire alarm making eggs. Josh, sixteen, pretended not to be sweet; Emily, fourteen, read at the table and sang too loud. Our kitchen table still bears their crayon scars.

They were picking up pizza when it happened. I heard sirens, thought they belonged to someone else’s tragedy, until the knock came. Three closed caskets later, I stopped answering calls and sat in their rooms until silence became unbearable.

A year later, I saw a flyer for a Halloween costume drive. Something stirred. In the attic, I found their old costumes—Emily’s bent-wing bumblebee, Josh’s firefighter jacket—and decided they shouldn’t stay in a box. I donated them, crying in a store aisle while buying new ones.

At the shelter’s party, a little girl ran up wearing Emily’s bumblebee suit. “Thank you!” she said. “Maybe you could be my mom?” Her name was Mia. The question cracked something open that grief hadn’t sealed shut.

Weeks of paperwork followed—interviews, background checks, hard questions about whether I could offer stability. When the call came—approved—I drove back trembling. Mia ran into my arms. “You came back!” she said.

That was two years ago. Mia is eight now, loud, bright, and determined to be a “bee doctor.” The house hums with laughter and glitter again. Grief still visits, but so does joy.

Mia says bees find their way home by dancing. She was mine